So yeah. Since i cant say this to you. here's my ranting apologie.

I never ment to do. everything i put you through.
I just wanted a coffee with you, Yet the wrong people found out how i felt. and i once again. Screwed everything up. For that I apologzie more then you could understand.
I hope, No. I PRAY that you understand how bad i feel for what i put you through. and i can understand if. Come May 2010. you do not return here. After all WE put you through. I can understand. I apologize big time. for my mistakes. for telling people i didnt trust. or. Worse yet. The people i did trust. I though i could change you. I really did. I though i could make you into what i wanted to. but you showed me you are nothing but a sick minded prep chaseing creeper. and i apologize i could not change that. the part that bothers me the most. that i seem to get the least is.

What did you see in them?, that you didnt see in me?

I am a girl to, I have a personality. i have all the female body parts that you've woundered about for so long. I sat and had nice coversations with you. I even made your family like me. after them hateing me for so long. and now it ripps me apart to wounder. What do you see in all of them girls? that you dont see in me?
I am not to young. because two were younger then I. I am not to Flat chested? because i am a 36B and one of them were an A cup. it just doesnt make sense to me. I know i am not cute, pretty, Attractive in anyway. but still. I've been told. Neither were most of them! I apologzie even though i had no control over it. I still apologize for the girl you like. turning aginst you. I think she to believed she could change your mind and turn you to see me. I would respect you, I know that. I would care for you, I know that to. Everyone has seen this. They have all told me. I just hope that one day when you think you found your "one true love" your "better Half" i hope...no I Pray She really is. that she will care for you. and make it all okay when you need it. I think seeing you that one last time, When i know i wasnt suppose to. I think that happened for a reason. but we just dont know what reason yet. I mean think about it. Even if you timed it. Why did i end up out there. just in time to see you walk into the building? It doesnt make sence. I go to break at 9:30am. but yesterday I was told to go at 10:00am. i even sat in the lunch room for a bit and ate. debateing on weather or not to go outside. i decided to. just intime to see you walking into the main office. I went back in. went to the washroom. bought a bag of cheesies and a pop. went back out. just in time to see you comeing back out.
I guess things happen all the time. for reasons we dont understand. but i can honestly say. even though we werent "ment to be" like everyone teased. (might i add i will never wear those pants and that T together again so we dont have to worrie of ever matching again) I still hope that one day. when you mature away from the act of the boy who only wants one thing. Then i pray that we can be friends. but i hope you know now. since I REALLY didnt want you to get hurt the frist time. and i pray you wont the 2nd. I promise you now. August 8th 11:33am. I promise you. I will never fall for you again. I will never show intrest again. I will let you live your life. I promise you i will.

~Deanna, With a cloud of shame and a broken heart. </3

for once. Wick doesnt speak. Deanna Does.

I apologzie for spelling errors spelling is not my strong point.

I owe him this apologie. though he may not see why. if he saw everything from my side. He'd understand.